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How your life can change   Leave a comment

How your life can change

By Toni Girl

My name is Kelly and I just turned 21 and my life is way different then I thought it would be, I have always been small I am only 5’4″ tall and weigh 125 so I really look more like a little kid. It also made it hard growing up as all the girls seemed to like the big football type boys. The only good thing about this is it allowed me to concentrate on my studies so I always got good grades.

I was 19 when I moved to Southern California and I found a small house in an older rundown neighborhood. Several of the houses were vacant but the house next door which had a young lady named Jill who lived there and she was beautiful and about the same age as me so I tried everything I could do to get to know her and it did work as we did become friends but I wanted more. We both worked at a local burger king as when you are young and just starting out it is hard to find a good paying job. We started carpooling to work to save money and this allowed me to get to know her better. We also started having dinner together always as friends though.

Jill was a pretty private person the only thing I knew for sure was she was not dating anyone. One night I was at her home for dinner and we were talking when I noticed something under her chair and reached down to pick it up and I am not sure who was more shocked as I pulled out a pair of handcuffs. I could see in Jill’s eyes she was embarrassed and scared so I made a joke about wondering what it would be like to be handcuffed which put her more at ease. We ended up talking for hours and Jill finally opened up to me. She had a thing for bondage and she would handcuff herself sometimes but she said it wasn’t the same as she could always unlock the cuffs. I felt we made a little connection that night.

Now I had never really thought about bondage but thought this was a chance to get closer to Jill and although it wasn’t something I really wanted to do I wasn’t against it either, I guess I was pretty neutral about it so the next night I was over their I talked with her and told her I was curious about bondage and would also like to try it. So after talking to her she pulled out a box that had all kinds of bondage things in it from paddles, leather straps, gags, ropes and several more pairs of handcuffs. I was in shock about all the things she had and that is when she asked me if I would handcuff her and I agreed. Now I was thinking this would be simple but she quickly put the ball gag in her mouth, put some cuffs on her ankles and then handed me a pair of handcuffs and the keys and turned around and put her hands behind her and I locked her up. I could see she was a little excited so I went ahead and left her on the bed and went out and cooked dinner which took about 45 minutes.

When dinner was ready I went back to the bedroom and she looked like she was really enjoying herself so I picked her up and carried her to the table. I then took the gag out of her mouth and she asked me what I was doing and I just smiled and told her I wasn’t ready to release her and that I would be feeding her tonight. Now I could see she was a little shocked, excited and maybe a little scared as she realized she was locked up till I released her. It was an incredible night.

The next night Jill came to my house for dinner we had a nice dinner and then Jill told me it was my turn and she pulled out some of her bondage stuff. The first thing was something made of leather with a collar which she put around my neck and it had a piece that went down my back. She then pulled my arms up behind my back and strapped them in behind my back. I was totally under her control now as there was no way I could get out by myself. I wondered what was next as she pulled me close and gave me a big kiss. This is the first kiss we have shared although I had dreamed about it. She then put the ball gag in my mouth and I was hers for the night. Now as I said I had never really thought about bondage before but it was quite the feeling, fear, excitement and helplessness. For the next couple hours I stayed this way and had to rely on her for help including going to the bathroom which was scary as I said we were just friends so she had never seen me naked but she pulled my pants down and helped me go and as there was nothing I could do I couldn’t even speak to her so I was a little shocked when she didn’t pull my pants back up so now I was naked from the waist down and I must admit I was a little excited which Jill noticed and she would play with me from time to time which made me all the more excited. After a couple hours she had me stand up and she pulled out a paddle and started to spank me, not real hard but enough to cause me a little discomfort and strangely enough I got real excited again at which point she pushed me down on the bed, pulled up her skirt and went down on me. It was the most incredible experience I have ever had and it didn’t take long and I was done. I couldn’t move and she just laid on top of me for a while.

Well this went on for the next couple weeks one night I would be her slave and the next she would be mine. As time went on we settled into a pattern and O was spending more of the time as her slave and I really enjoyed it. It seemed to happen so slowly that I didn’t even notice things were changing, it is funny how you miss the little things. Now we both had weekends off so the way it would work is Jill would be my slave on Wednesday and Thursday nights and from Friday to Wednesday I was her slave and since we had weekends off from Friday night till Monday morning I was her slave nonstop and we both loved it. After about a month we both knew we were in love.

Friday night we got home and Jill quickly striped me naked and bound my arms behind me and put the gag in my mouth, smiling at me she told me that as her slave now she wanted to mark me kind of put her brand on me which scared me a little as I was helpless at this point. She pulled out a bottle of bright red nail polish and told me she was going to paint my toes and when I hesitated she quickly grabbed the paddle and gave me a spanking that was just a little harder than the times before and told me it was not my place to refuse her and that no one would see my toes so I sat down and soon I had bright red toe nails. Later that night she again went down on me and it was another incredible love making session. I never knew it could be this way. At night she released me and we went to bed.

The next day when we got up I we took a shower together, she lathered me up and I did the same to her and then we washed off and my skin never felt softer that was because all my body hair not that I had much was gone. As I was getting dressed she handed me a pair of her pink panties and told me she wanted me to wear them as no one would see them and I didn’t even hesitate I just put them on. They felt different but in a good way as their soft feel against my smooth skin was incredible. So from this point I wore her panties every day and always had my toe nails polished and she was right no one could tell. It also gave me that feeling that I was still under her control even while at work and also when it was my turn to tie her up.

We had an incredible relationship and I learned I loved bondage. Well we did this for a few weeks and it was so much fun. It was Friday night and Jill had me strip down to just my pink panties and she started to bind my arms behind my back when she stopped and looked at my chest. She smiled and told me I had little man boobs extra fat on my chest and we needed to fix that so she pulled out a pink bra that matched my panties and put it on me. It was a little tight and actually pushed the fat up giving me small boobs. She then secured my arms behind my back for the evening. The bra felt a little strange but also exciting and I couldn’t help but look down to see my small boobs and the cleavage that was there. After a couple hours Jill started playing with me and as usual it didn’t take long to get me hard, she knew how to push all the right buttons on me. That night she had me wear the bra to bed along with one of her teddies.

Saturday morning we got up and we were going to Disney Land for the day and as we got dressed Jill handed me a pink bra to go with my panties and said it would be fun and so sexy if I wore it today. Now it was a little on the cool side and I was wearing a sweat shirt so I figured why not so now I was wearing pink panties and bra along with having bright red nail polish on my toes. Now I also must say that over the last couple I have not had time to get a haircut so my hair is down almost to my shoulder. I also didn’t look that close to see that even with the sweat shirt you could still see little boobs sticking out.

Well we got to Disney land and went in and we had so much fun and went on so many rides. At lunch we found a little café to eat a and the waiter came over and ask how we were doing by saying How are you ladies dong today which caught me off guard but then being so small and the long hair I could see where he made the mistake but before I could correct him Jill spoke up and told him yes we were having a wonderful girls day out. The rest of the day went by so fast and a couple times men would hold doors open for not only Jill but also me and I just went with it.

That night when we got home Jill was all over me, she didn’t even take time to bind my arms or anything. It was one of the most magical nights I have ever had. On Sunday morning we got up and we were going back to Disney land as we had bought a 2 day pass. Jill had set out a pair of white pantie’s and a pink bra which I put on but I did question why they were different colors at which point she smiled and told me I was not to question her choice and she then had me bend over and gave me a spanking, not in a mean way but it did get my attention. Jill just smiled at me and handed me a pair of her white Capri’s and a pink top as today it was sunny and would be in the 80’s and told me as everyone had thought I was a girl yesterday we were going to do it right today. I knew not to challenge her as I had become submissive to her by now so I put them on. I will admit you could really see my little boobs and the cleavage and of course the bra.

Jill then had me sit down at her vanity and used a curling iron on my hair to give it some curls and actually made it into quit a feminine style. I looked into the mirror and I could see how people had mistaken me for a girl yesterday. As I was doing this Jill started to put the same red nail polish on my fingers which really made my hands look different. She then did a quick makeup job mascara, eye shadow and a rose lipstick and she did the same to her face. She then handed me a pair of her open toed sandals which I put on and they showed my toes off well. I looked in the mirror and there was no way you could tell I was not a girl. With that we were on our way. It wasn’t till I was in the car and we had been gone from the house for a few minutes when it hit me what I was doing today and I got scared. Jill just smiled and told me to relax as I would be fine besides there was nothing I could do about it now which was true. We had a great day and everyone we met saw nothing more than two young ladies out for a fun day at Disney Land. We even had a couple men hit on us which really made me feel uneasy. Jill even hot pictures of me that day.

Monday morning came and I was so worried that someone would notice some trace of makeup I missed but Jill helped me get it all off although my hair still had a bit of a curl to it. I put on my panties and bra and off we went to work. I am sure my little boobs were noticeable but no one said anything so this became our lives bondage every night and on the weekends I would become a girl for the weekend. It all happened so slowly that I never even really realized what had happened.

Well a year later we both turned 21 and Jill had got an offer from a casino in Las Vegas to be a cocktail waitress which would mean way more money than working at Burger King so we talked it over and decided to move there and I would try and find a job also. We both gave our two week notice. And started to plan our move. Jill talked to me and told me she thought I should be a girl for a week or two while we moved and got settled and before I started to look for work. Now I know I should have hated this idea but there was a little thrill of excitement about doing this so I agreed. Our last day of work was a Friday and we were going to make the drive to Las Vegas Saturday afternoon. The hotel she was going to be working at had given her a room for 5 days to help till she could find an apartment.

So Saturday morning we got up and got ready. Jill gave me a cute little short skirt and top to wear and she only did a light makeup and we were off. We didn’t leave town though we went to a local beauty parlor and we both got pedicures and acrylic nails in bright red and then we also had them do our makeup and hair. We both looked like we had just stepped out of a fashion magazine. Then we were off. We got to Las Vegas about 6 pm and checked into the hotel room. .

On Sunday we drove around looking at apartment buildings and getting an idea where we could live and what we could afford. Then we went back to the hotel and did a little gambling. It was so much fun and I even forgot that I wasn’t really a girl as I didn’t have that fear of running into someone I knew. On Monday Jill went to her orientation and I hung out in the casino. Jill was going to start work on Wednesday so we decided on Tuesday we really needed to find a place to live so we scheduled a couple appointments at a few apartment buildings the casino had recommended. They were all nice but the third one we went to was great. Nice big apartment. Clean well kept up with a swimming pool and weight room and the rent was only $700 a month which was in our budget. While we were there Jill ran into a couple of the girls she had met at orientation. So we all talked for a while as the apartment manager did a check on us and then we got our keys. The other two girls also decided to rent an apartment here. Once all the paper work was done we went back to the hotel for dinner. It would take a couple days for our stuff to be delivered so we would stay there for the full five days.

While Jill worked I was cleaning the apartment and getting it ready for our stuff to move in. I also met a few more of the neighbors who also worked at the same casino. Seems a lot of the employees live here. Well we only had to sleep on the floor a few nights before our stuff arrived and what I was really looking forward to was our bondage stuff as it had been over a week since either of us had been bound.

Jill finally got a night off and I was ready, she secured my arms behind my back and put the gag in my mouth and then gave me a spanking. I can’t tell you how much I had missed this. She then got a real serious look on her face and smiled. She asked me if I really enjoyed being submissive to her and doing what she wanted. With the gag all I could do is nod yes as I really did enjoy it. She told me she was glad as I was going to be under her control and she would take care of me which made me happy. She then smiled again and told me she had the best and most secure bondage figured out for me and hoped I would love it. I again nodded yes as I was sure I would.

That is when she told me something I had not thought of or counted on. Since we had moved to Las Vegas I had been living as a girl full time. All our neighbors new me as female, so did the apartment manager who had rented the apartment to two girls, there was no way I could go back to being a man. I was now going to live as a girl as long as we lived in the apartment which we had signed a two year lease. I was trapped. I could feel the fear inside me and I wanted to scream but the ball gag prevented me from doing that. Jill just smiled and told me to sit and think about it for a while and then she went into the other room. I was helpless as I sat there waiting. I had never been so scared in all my life.

Jill came back two hours later and took the gag out of my mouth and told me that I knew she was right I had to stay female for the foreseeable future. I knew she was right as there really was no way out. I was now in a permanent bondage as a girl. Jill made it easier on me by telling me she loved me and would never leave me and so we started our life together.

I get my nails done every other week and I love the long nails, Jill even got me a job at the casino with her and yes I am also a cocktail waitress and with tips we are both making good money. It took me a while to figure out that the more I flirt with the men the better the tips. I am still uneasy about this but the money is good.

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Being unemployed leads to a surprise   Leave a comment

Being unemployed leads to a surprise

By Toni Girl

Well it all started about a year ago. I was living in a small neighborhood of older homes as they were the only ones I could afford on the amount of money I made as I only had a high school education. I had the smallest house on the block only 900 sq feet but it had a big unfinished basement. You see I live in the mid west and most homes here have basements for when the bad weather hits. I had great hopes of fixing it up though and turning it into my special room you see I am a crossdresser and although I would never go outside I love to dress up at home. I am actually pretty good at it as I am short for a man 5’6″ and very thin and wear my hair long just for this reason. Well because of my little hobby I kept to myself even my neighbors I shied always from. I mean I knew them nut didn’t really socialize with them. By the way my name is Kelly.

My one neighbor was beautiful long blonde hair and looked like a model and best of all she was single, her name was Sarah. She had just got hired as a flight attendant for an airline just about the time I got laid off from my job, seems my boss had a gambling problem and went bankrupt. Occasionally we would talk and she told me about her new job and of course I told her about my unemployment, luckily for the unemployment as that would allow me to survive for about a year so I was going to enjoy a little time with my crossdressing.

Well she finished her training and got on a regular schedule and as soon as she did that she called me over one day to ask me a favor, seems she would be gone for 2 to 3 days at a time and wanted to know if I would keep an eye on her house and water her plants which I agreed to and she gave me a key and showed me her plants and how much water they needed. She also told me the basement was just storage and really cluttered so no need to go down there. I would say we had become friends which was so nice as I really didn’t have many because of my crossdressing.

Well as she started to travel I would go over and check on her place and water her plants. It had been a couple weeks and I don’t know why but suddenly the thought popped in my mind and maybe it was seeing her beautiful dress on her bed but I realized we were pretty close to the same size. I held it up to me, now I am about an inch taller than her but as I am really skinny and she has a really nice figure I was sure it would fit but I couldn’t so I put it down. Later that day I couldn’t get the thought out of my mind and so that night I went back over to her house and tried it on. It fit perfectly well if I had brought my silicon breast with me and had a little more hip.

I knew it was wrong but I couldn’t stop myself and so now every time she left I would go play dress up at her house which was wonderful as she had so many more cloths then I do and the shoes looked like a department store. I often wondered why such a beautiful woman would be single but then my mind went back to her cloths.

I had been doing this for a few months a couple times a week when she was gone, I even tried a little of her makeup but this was too risky so I would bring my own over and by now is was completely transforming myself while I was at her house it was the perfect life. One day I was walking around her house all dressed up in a red dress and heels and as I went in the kitchen I noticed the door to the basement wasn’t shut tight and I don’t know why but I opened it and looked downstairs. From what I could see it looked pretty clean and so I went down to check it out. it was divided in half and there was a sofa and big screen TV on the one end and very nice and about half way down was a solid wood door so I went down to take a look.

When I opened the door I was in shock, it looked like a medieval dungeon. There were 2 jail cells on one side of the room, on the far wall were chains hooked to the wall and all kinds of leather straps, paddles and other things I had no idea what they did. I was fascinated so I started looking around. The jail cells the locks didn’t seem to work which was kind of fun as I went in one and closed the door and pretended I was being held captive. I looked in the next cell and it had an old wooden stockade, it was hug, there was a place to lock your feet and then you bent over and put your head and hands in to lock them so I went to that cell to check it out and just like the other one the lock on the cell didn’t work. I looked at the stockade and where you put your feet were held in place by flipping a latch down and then you could paddle lock it but you could also just put the lock through so it wouldn’t release and you didn’t have to actually lock the lock.

The part you put your head and hands in hinged down and it looked like there was a place to put a wooden peg in to hold it shut so it would take someone else to lock you into this. I don’t know why but this excited me even though I had never thought about bondage. I pulled the cell door shut and put my feet in and slid the lock through careful not to lock it. I put my head and hand in and let the top come down and them pretended that I was a prisoner and forced to dress this way. I had found a whole new excitement to my cross-dressing.

Over the next month this became my normal routine. I even started to use one of her ball gags so I could scream it was amazing how well the ball gags worked as I could only get a muffled scream out no matter how loud I tried. I doubt if anyone in the upstairs would have heard me.

Needless to say I really wasn’t looking hard for a job as when Sarah was gone I was at her house almost nonstop. I had even got in the habit of just putting on her bras, panties and heels and doing my makeup and then going down to the dungeon. I thought a couple times about asking her about the dungeon but could never figure out a way to bring it up. As it would be so much more fun to actually be locked up by someone else but then again I love the crossdressing part. I even looked at the locks on the cells to see what it would take to fix them but it looked like they were made this way. There was no locking mechanism in the door just a hole where it would be and no place to put a key. I loved Sarah’s trips. She would leave in the morning and do a flight to Hawaii which was a 10 hour flight as she would fly from where we lived in Oklahoma to LA have an hour or so layover and then on to Hawaii. She would spend the night and then do the reverse so she would get home the next evening about 6. This gave me the one hole day, that night and the next morning to play and by mid afternoon I was always done and cleaned up to make sure by the time she got home things were back perfect.

Well about 3 months ago Sarah left on a Monday morning and I started normal fun. I had such a normal routine down. I would go over to her place and do my hair and makeup, put on one of her bra, panties and 4″ heels and then go down and spend a few hours playing prisoner, I loved the stockade. This would take me into mid afternoon at which time I would go up and touch up my makeup and put on one of her beautiful dresses. I would then fix myself dinner; I would bring my own food and then sit around and watch TV, play on my laptop and have a fun evening. about 11 I would put all her cloths back just as I found them and put my cloths back on and go home most of the time I didn’t take the makeup off as I just had to walk next door to my house and I could cut through the yard and it was dark out. the next day I would go back over and do the same thing play in the dungeon till maybe 3 or so you see with a computer you can tack flights by flight numbers so I could see where Sarah’s flight was and I knew once she left LA she had about a 3 hour flight home and then it would take her about an hour to get home from the airport. Today her flight left LA at 2:30 and so she should be home about 6:30 so I was going to play in the dungeon till 4 and that would give me time to change back and make sure everything was right when she got home

So Tuesday morning I got dressed and went to the dungeon and played till noon then went up and made myself a sandwich and checked on Sarah’s flight it was right on time. it was about 2 when I went back down to the dungeon and I was wearing her hot pink bra and panties and her 4″ pink shoes I looked hot all made up. I went into the cell, shut the door and grabbed a ball gag and put it in my mouth. Next I put my feet in the stockade and put the lock through again being careful not to lock it. next I put my head and hands in and let the top come down and again I was trapped well not really but I could imagine. I would pretend to struggle and on these days it was always more exciting as I knew Sarah would be home in a few hours and I could pretend I was stuck and she would find me. It was about 4 and I heard a little humming sound which I figured was the heater coming on, funny I had never heard that before well it didn’t matter as I was having fun. I was watching my laptop on the floor as I always kept an eye on Sarah’s flight. It was half way home now from LA so I knew I had about 2 hours or less to change back and make sure everything was in there proper place and I had washed off all traces of my makeup and was back at home. I pushed the top of the stockade up to get out and it didn’t move, I pushed again and nothing. Something was wrong, the stockade couldn’t be locked by me alone so I knew I just had to push again and still nothing.

I was scared now as something was really wrong, I was trapped. Wait this can’t happen I just need to calm down as I had checked this and it didn’t lock, someone would have to put the wooden peg in and I could see that had not happened but no matter how hard I tried the top would not go up and release me. I was stuck. I calmed down to think what to do as I glanced at my laptop on the floor. Sarah’s plane was getting closer what was I going to do. she would get home and find me in her dungeon after she had told me not to come down here, she would also find me wearing her stuff and dressed as a girl in full makeup. This was bad wait what if she doesn’t come down here, with the gag in I could scream all I wanted and upstairs she would never hear me. I could be trapped here. I don’t even know if she comes downstairs or uses this stuff. I was really scared and the more I struggled but nothing worked I was trapped and as bad as it was my only hope was that Sarah would find me and set me free of course that would mean an end to our friendship. All I could do is wait. Sarah’s plane landed and I knew it wouldn’t be long.

Time passed so slowly as I waited it was after 7 now and I would have thought Sarah would be home by now but then again I really couldn’t hear if she was upstairs and I tried screaming but it was such a low muffled sound. Suddenly the door to the room opened and in walked Sarah and she was wearing a really nice black dress and heels and her makeup was looking perfect. She looked beautiful as I have never really seen her all made up. She walked over to the cell door and pulled on it and it didn’t open and she just smiled at me. What was going on. She looked at me and smiled again and then started to speak. “well what do we have here a new prisoner?” with the gag I could not speak. She went and got her laptop computer and walked back over to the cell door. She pushed a couple keys on the keyboard and then pulled the door open and walked in.

She looked at me, “well you are in a little trouble aren’t you?” I tried to lift the top and it still would move or release me. Sarah took something off the wall behind me, “well you have been a naught little girl wearing my cloths without asking me first”, and I felt her spank me with a leather paddle. Not really hard but it got my attention as I knew there was nothing I could do I was stuck. Sarah walked back in front of me and looked at me, “well what am I going to do with you” she asked and again I could say nothing because of the gag.

Sarah smiled again, “well you need to be punished so I guess I will have to spank you”. Smiling she looked at me and said, “when you think you have been punished enough and have learned your lesson please say I am sorry Mistress Sarah”. And as she walked back around behind me I tried to scream as I knew with the gag I could not say anything.

I felt the first swat and the sound was way worse than the pain but then the next one was a little harder. I tried to scream I am sorry mistress Sarah but all that came out was muffled sounds. Sarah spanked me again and again and the pain was getting to me. It was not unbearable but with each swat it hurt more and I could feel the tears rolling down my face. They were not a brutal attack but more designed to get my attention. I lost count but guess she spanked me 20 times or so before stopping and walking back in front of me, “well have you learned your lesson” she asked? I couldn’t speak but did the best to nod my head yes.

She set the paddle down and released my feet and then pushed a couple keys on her laptop and the humming sound stopped and I could push the top up which I did. As soon as I stood up I took the gag out and started to apologize about everything, wearing her cloths, playing in her dungeon I was still crying. Sarah put her finger to my lip to shut me up, “Listen to me Kelly, tonight you are my slave and you will do what I say and refer to me as Mistress Sarah, do you understand”? I said yes. “now I want you to go upstairs to my room and get that red dress you wore last week and the red heels and put it on and touch up your makeup while I get dinner on the table I stopped and picked us up some Chinese food on the way home”.

I went upstairs and did as she said still scared and worried what would happen. I came downstairs to find her sitting at the table with the food spread out and a bottle of wine open so I sat down. I started to apologize but she again stopped me, “be quiet, tonight you will address me as Mistress Sarah remember, now you were a naughty girl for taking my things without asking first and for that you have been punished. You will not do that again without asking me do you understand”? I said yes mistress Sarah. “Good now we are going to have some fun”.

She then started talking about her family, seems her parents had been killed a couple years back in a car wreck and left her their house. she told me how they love bondage and had built the dungeon downstairs to play in and would take turns. She also enjoyed it but had changed the locks to a magnetic lock she could control with her computer so she could lock herself up and set a timer. If the computer stopped or the power went off the locks would release so it was safe. Turns out she had used her computer from LA to turn the locks one when I was in it.

I asked her how she knew and she said it was little things, first she had noticed some lipstick on one of her ball gags but it was when she found an eye shadow in her bathroom that wasn’t hers she got curious and as the dungeon is controlled by her computer including cameras both downstairs and upstairs she had started checking in on her house while she was away and had been watching me dress and pretend to lock myself up. She was mad at first but then thought this might turn out good as we both liked the dungeon. I know had someone who knew about my dressing and seemed okay with it. we had a nice dinner and talked and I always remembered to addresser her as Mistress Sarah.

After dinner we got up and she smiled at me, “now may slave we are going down to the dungeon and we are going to play with some of the other toys which you have to have someone to lock you in”. I was a little nervous when she came over and gave me a kiss on the cheek. “Tonight you are my slave and I am your mistress but tomorrow it is my turn to have you lock me up and spank me”. This caught me off guard but made me feel so much better as I knew we were going to be really good friends and who knows where it will lead.

That is how it all started who knows where it will lead.